October 5,2004
Konnichiwa!
How are You?
Today was ok... I know. It must sound pretty boring but it wasn't especially for the beginning of the week..well kind of.I was angry again at Kel and Nikki,but more at myself..I guess its my fault.It always is,its my fault for having such bad luck,saying things at the wrong moment and being a perfectionist...etc.Thats why I was so frusturated on Friday...I bet I have so many bad qualitites about me.I was also kinda angry at Nikki..Again.*sigh* Not only did she think it was her,but Kel made herself and Nikki think that it was them! I left at lunch in order to cool down,I dont want to say anything stupid and hurtful to them.(Which I sometimes do)I got angry because Nikki always thinks its her which it isnt and Kel should just give me some space...Not too much though or I'll get lonely..Yes I sound like a loser...And I'm not sure If I am or not but at least I have a small group of friends I can trust with different topics.My Friends are trustworthy and I'm sure that I can talk to them with out lots of difficulty.On that Particular Day i just wanted to Lay beneath the sky,secluded..but I kinda wished to have someone there...At least one...Like a partner...*anime sweatdrop* Or my Soulmate or whatever you like to label them as..I know,I know..I guess you could say I'm kinda hopeful right now.More like pathetic.I've watched so many anime movies or series,including real life Chinese/vietnamese Acting and yet they always have love in the story...Anime takes the beggest effects since I always watch them.If only...
Oh well..I don't want to ever meet someone that would return my feelings,then what would I do?I would hate but love it at the same time..I said that I wouldn't date a single guy until University/Collage.I wouldn't want a distraction or be devistated for my school work now would I.^-^ I'm sure I wouldn't like being with them anyway..unless I feel comfortable.There would be nothing to talk about I bet and I'd probably trip or something...>.<; I've seen how most relationships gone and all done turn out so pretty...The worse thing they (the dumpee) could do was to preserve old memories or used stuff...(don't ask me about that stuff,you dont want to know...ex, used 3 year old socks that havent been washed) Most of my family's relationships with other people that dont have the same gene is that they either,
a) get hurt and spend many days in the room crying and making me go fetch them things
or b) they get pregnant
So thats why I don't want one at such a early age.
Yatta! Last week I was so glad! I got 34/44 for my math quiz..Which is good because math is my worse subject.^-^ But I hope to do better on my next one.*nods*
And I've been doing quite well in my Art class,especially drawing chibi!Besides that stuff I havent been online anymore,I probably wont be with all the schooling and all...And if your in school (and your reading this) I'm wishing you good luck with your schooling!!
If I used to comment in your blog,Gomen..I haven't been commenting lately. Gotta take time for school and Fun! Or maybe Just school....Well Got to go!
Ja!
~Dozi Tohru~
How are You?
Today was ok... I know. It must sound pretty boring but it wasn't especially for the beginning of the week..well kind of.I was angry again at Kel and Nikki,but more at myself..I guess its my fault.It always is,its my fault for having such bad luck,saying things at the wrong moment and being a perfectionist...etc.Thats why I was so frusturated on Friday...I bet I have so many bad qualitites about me.I was also kinda angry at Nikki..Again.*sigh* Not only did she think it was her,but Kel made herself and Nikki think that it was them! I left at lunch in order to cool down,I dont want to say anything stupid and hurtful to them.(Which I sometimes do)I got angry because Nikki always thinks its her which it isnt and Kel should just give me some space...Not too much though or I'll get lonely..Yes I sound like a loser...And I'm not sure If I am or not but at least I have a small group of friends I can trust with different topics.My Friends are trustworthy and I'm sure that I can talk to them with out lots of difficulty.On that Particular Day i just wanted to Lay beneath the sky,secluded..but I kinda wished to have someone there...At least one...Like a partner...*anime sweatdrop* Or my Soulmate or whatever you like to label them as..I know,I know..I guess you could say I'm kinda hopeful right now.More like pathetic.I've watched so many anime movies or series,including real life Chinese/vietnamese Acting and yet they always have love in the story...Anime takes the beggest effects since I always watch them.If only...
Oh well..I don't want to ever meet someone that would return my feelings,then what would I do?I would hate but love it at the same time..I said that I wouldn't date a single guy until University/Collage.I wouldn't want a distraction or be devistated for my school work now would I.^-^ I'm sure I wouldn't like being with them anyway..unless I feel comfortable.There would be nothing to talk about I bet and I'd probably trip or something...>.<; I've seen how most relationships gone and all done turn out so pretty...The worse thing they (the dumpee) could do was to preserve old memories or used stuff...(don't ask me about that stuff,you dont want to know...ex, used 3 year old socks that havent been washed) Most of my family's relationships with other people that dont have the same gene is that they either,
a) get hurt and spend many days in the room crying and making me go fetch them things
or b) they get pregnant
So thats why I don't want one at such a early age.
Yatta! Last week I was so glad! I got 34/44 for my math quiz..Which is good because math is my worse subject.^-^ But I hope to do better on my next one.*nods*
And I've been doing quite well in my Art class,especially drawing chibi!Besides that stuff I havent been online anymore,I probably wont be with all the schooling and all...And if your in school (and your reading this) I'm wishing you good luck with your schooling!!
If I used to comment in your blog,Gomen..I haven't been commenting lately. Gotta take time for school and Fun! Or maybe Just school....Well Got to go!
Ja!
~Dozi Tohru~
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